Hearing the <3 beat for the first time

16 weeks today!

I was feeling quite good for the last week or so but unfortunately this morning I felt nauseous again and threw up (can’t wait for this morning sickness to end!)

I finally got an appointment with my midwife which we went to today. My blood pressure is perfect and we got to hear the baby’s heart  beat for the first time! I have seen it on the previous scans we have had but it was lovely to be able to hear it. The baby’s heart rate was somewhere between 110-160 bpm which the midwife said was perfect.

She also gave me some magnesium to take on top of my prenatal vitamins as I have been experiencing restless legs that even wake me up during the night and then I end up tossing and turning for hours.

Before we left her office we were sure to schedule in our next midwife appointment at the beginning of November and even more excitedly we got to schedule our next ultrasound for the end of October! This will be the last ultrasound if everything is okay and normal. But the exciting part about this ultrasound is that we will (fingers crossed baby is in the right position) find out the gender!

Over the last week I celebrated my 28th birthday. Unfortunately T was out of town so we didn’t get to celebrate together. However, our 4th wedding anniversary is at the beginning of October so we are going to celebrate this by staying a long weekend at a local hotel. Lots of swimming, watching movies and ordering room service! We decided to splurge (we normally just go out for a nice dinner) as we figured this will be the last one before the baby comes.

I also had a fall last week! My first fall with this pregnancy and my first fall in years. Apparently falling will become quite normal the bigger I get but it was still a bit scary. I fell over at our local petrol (gas) station in front of so many people and not one person checked to see if I was okay. It was raining and the road was very slippery. I fell on my knees and hands- thank god not my belly! I had black oil splattered all over me, grazed palms and a bleeding gravel rash on my right knee. I was okay but felt very sore the following few days.

Until next time 🙂


15 weeks

Today I am 15 weeks pregnant. We finally got our very first BFP on cycle 6 doing at home insemination’s. This post is all about the first 15 weeks.


I first tested at 10DPO and got a BFN, however, I had some slight body changes so decided to test again on 12DPO and got my first BFP. It was very exciting and I actually cried when I saw that second line.

I experienced horrible morning all day sickness the first 14 weeks but now at 15 weeks I feel like it has settled down.

We had our first midwife appointment at 8 weeks but it was just a general appointment with paper work. Our first scan was a week or so later and we got to see the heart beat for the first time (we still haven’t heard it though!).


At 12 weeks and 6 days we had our second ultrasound. The baby had a perfect heart beat above 160bpm and was moving around and kicking me (although I couldn’t feel anything).


After this ultrasound we decided to announce our news on Facebo.ok (we had already told our immediate family and close friends). I also let my work know the next day who were very happy for me.

Here is how we announced on Facebo.ok-


The only problem I have is I can’t get in contact with my midwife. I have been calling for the last 2 weeks trying to get an appointment after our first 2 scans and she is either not at work or away. I haven’t seen her since the first appointment at 8 weeks and now I am in my 2nd trimester. I am honestly thinking about requesting a new midwife. I called again this morning and left another message for her to call me so let’s see if she does!

I can’t wait to find out the gender (although I feel like it is a girl!).


Good luck to all those trying for their BFP with at home insemination’s. Patience and timing are the key’s in this journey 🙂

Saying Goodbye…

Sorry I have been absent over the last month or so.

We found out that our long term foster child is leaving our care. She has been with us for three years and we consider her our child. She will be reunified with her parents. This is foster care. Children come and they go. We know that. But at the beginning of the year we were told she would be with us until she is 18. And then just as quickly we found out she is leaving.

She goes in two days time. We have tried to spend every second together and enjoy her company. I love her like she is my own and my heart literally breaks when I think about her going. How am I meant to parent her for three years and then boom it’s over? I think I will be searching for her face in crowds for the rest of my life. My heart will always hold a special place for her and I will always welcome her back with open arms.

We tried to fight for her to stay, tried everything we could think of. But minds were made up and there was no way they were going to let her stay with us.

We won’t be taking in anymore long term foster children. That chapter of our lives is done. If anything we will take on minimal respite cases to stay on the books in case she comes back into care.

This is grief. And I don’t know if I will ever be fully over it.


Baby Dust

We decided to try at home insemination again this cycle.

I started POAS on an OPK on CD17. I thought for sure I wasn’t going to ovulate until between CD22-CD24 as recently my cycles have been quite long. Something told me to POAS and it came up negative but I had a feeling to call our donor and ask for an insemination that night. I can’t explain it but I just knew we had to. The next day was a Friday morning (CD18) and while on my morning break at work (about 10am) I decided to POAS again and it was positive! I couldn’t believe it as I had previously had such long cycles. So of course I took another at 1130am (positive) and 3pm (positive)- Just had to make sure lol.

We inseminated again that night. Saturday morning (CD19) about 10am I took another and it was positive again so we inseminated that day about 3pm. I also had cramps this day that started about midday.

Sunday (CD20) comes and I had another positive OPK. So we inseminated that night.

Monday (CD21) and finally a negative OPK. Although we did inseminate (just to be sure lol).

I believe I ovulated on the Saturday (CD19) just because it was 24hrs after the first positive OPK and I had cramps also. But Fertili.ty Frie.nd put my ovulation at CD20 (the day after). So I don’t know. I actually didn’t temp this cycle as I wasn’t even sure if we would go ahead this cycle and also I always forget to do it lol!

So we are in the TWW again. I am either 4DPO or 3DPO and we got 5 donations this cycle.

Fingers crossed x

DPO means we are in the TTW

A quick post today to let you all know we are officially in the TTW!

I finally got my peak on both the Clearbl.ue and a normal OPK on CD23 with Fertili.ty Frie.nd putting my ovulation at CD24 which is in the normal range for me.

I am eating a piece of pineapple core from 1DPO-5DPO this cycle. Not sure if it really works or if it is just an old wives tale but hey it can’t hurt.

As of today I am officially 2DPO and now we wait….and wait… and wait!

A quick update

Just a quick stop to let you all know how this cycle is going.

Well it is now CD18 & still no ovulation! That smiley face keeps blinking at me every single day- I have been testing for 5 days now.

We are inseminating every other day until I get a solid smiley in which case we will do it twice that day. So far we have had 3 donations which is really good as normally we only get about 3 in each cycle.

I know during the time we had off I still should of tracked my cycle but it was so nice to take a break and not worry or stress about it.

Also, I am thinking about writing a how to post on how we inseminate at home.

Until then,